CHAPTER 3

The Enemy Within

The present in which you live is a reflection of the past, and this past is covered by a dense veil of confusion and misunderstandings that block YOUR TRUE REASON FOR LIVING. Emotional ignorance, confusion and falsehood have covered the truth of who you are. This is why you must search your emotional roots, to find the answers to:

Who am I?
Why do I feel bad and guilty?
Why do I have to feel out of place?
Why do I feel rejected or criticized?
Why do I have to feel ashamed?
Why am I so anxious or worried?
Why am I always angry?
Why am I afraid?
Why do I feel like a failure?
Why do I feel dissatisfied?
Why do I have to show myself to others as someone that I am not?
Why do I have to act vain and important?
Why do I think of dying?
Why do I have to use alcohol, tobacco, medicines or drugs to calm my anxiety?
Why do I like to engage in dangerous sports?

Although it is true that each individual’s character is influenced by genetic information and attitudes learned from parents during childhood, the predominant part of your character is a result of the accumulated charges of negative energy produced by you--what is known as the Enemy Within.
The human being produces three kinds of energy (ethereal energies) which are linked.

First kind of energy:
Every hour the physical or biological body produces a body of ethereal energy as waste, the result of assimilation of food, water and air (picture this like the fine skin of an onion). When a person makes few movements for various hours (like being seated for two or three hours) this energy accumulates.

Second kind of energy:
The second kind of energy is related to the mental body through thoughts which send out vibrating waves. The kind of wave generated depends on the quality of the thoughts generated by the individual, which are either harmonious or polarized.
The Harmonious Wave is generated by the True Mind. It is soft and harmonious, generated by positive thoughts, love, meditation or prayer.

The Polarized Wave is generated by the Lying Mind. This wave is arrhythmic and irregular, and is created by negative thoughts and low frequency, fear, ire, selfishness, vanity, lust, etc.

Third Kind of Energy:
The third kind of energy consists of vibratory waves related to the emotional body, feelings and emotions. Like your thoughts these send off harmonious or polarized waves depending on the vibration in which you find yourself.
All of these vibratory waves come together each hour, forming a body of ethereal energy. If the individual is in a state of love, harmony, peace, joy, meditation or prayer, then the accumulation of energy generated during the past hour moves, leaving the body as the individual exercises each day, or simply walks everyday for a period not less than 30 minutes. However every time you vibrate with negative emotions such as sadness, blame, anger, etc., then the energy produced each hour cannot leave but rather is accumulated, creating a destructive force within you, the Enemy Within. (If we could see this outside the body, it would look like a dark gelatin covering you from the top of your head to the base of the trunk of your body.) This Enemy Within is connected with the Mental and the Emotional Body, and as a form of energy it is constantly pulsing within you every time you feel anger (rage), guilt, sadness, etc., creating a layer of negative energy that every hour adheres and accumulates, increasing the size of this enemy until at any given moment it is so great that you lose control of yourself. It is like a demonic monster torturing you little by little.
Perhaps you or another person has lost control in a situation, later saying, “I don’t know what happened to me, I couldn’t control myself. It’s like there was something inside me making me act like that.” Or on the contrary, perhaps there was a situation where you knew that it was important to defend yourself, to act or think quickly to receive the answer you required at that moment, but you simply could not find it, you stood mute or frozen. Something inside you stopped you, prevented your reacting. If this has happened to you, you must not ignore it. Take care of it, because the purpose of the Enemy Within is to destroy you, to use your emotions and thoughts through your mind, which is divided in two. To identity these thoughts we gave the Lying Mind and the True Mind.

Lying Mind: The Lying Mind creates negative thoughts, reproducing memories of negative experiences that were recorded (mainly during the prenatal period, childhood or adolescence) during painful situations. The Lying Mind seeks to deceive you, and lies to you. It speaks negatively, telling you things that make you act and feel bad, making you think negative thoughts, and forcing you to act in a negative way. It makes you feel the blame for everything. You get angry, you lie, you feel fear, you act with envy and jealousy. It makes you feel rejected, you shout, run away from situations that make you tense, with no control over your actions. You become sick, depending on alcohol, tobacco, drugs, compulsive eating or lack of eating. Everything worries you, you deceive people in personal and work situations, etc. And, it makes you think, “(They) don’t love me, don’t like me, I’m just a problem;” “I never do anything right, I’m just a klutz . . .”; “My friend just ignored me, he’s hiding from me, he doesn’t want to speak to me;” “I’m ashamed of myself;” “I’m so fat, I’m really disgusting;” “If I fool him then I’ll get more money;” “It’s not worth the effort, I’m not going to win anyway,” “I want to die”, or “I’d like to just disappear;” “Life has no sense;” “What am I doing here? I’m tired, I don’t want to keep on.”

True Mind: Your True Mind creates positive thoughts of love, peace, success, wisdom, confidence, strength, harmony, beauty, abundance. It is the antidote for the Enemy Within; it quiets it, neither allowing it to speak nor to send negative emotions or thoughts. It is connected to positive memories of love, happy moments in your life, with a sunset, flowers, the country, all those things that you like and enjoy doing, the support of those who have helped you, your successes, etc. It is what tells you, “Have hope! Keep on, don’t give up;” “Be happy, look for happiness wherever it may be!” It is the part of your mind that is connected with God, and that doesn’t allow you to give up because it knows that you can be happy.
Remember seeing cartoons of a person in thought, and next to his head appears a little angel telling him only good and positive things? This little angel is the True Mind. On the other side of his head is a little devil, inciting him to do bad and negative things. This is how we can visualize the Enemy Within, continuously vibrating and connected with your Lying Mind using bad memories, anger, sadness, fear, failure, etc.
Imagine that within you there is a complete videotaping equipment with the ability to record and store every second of your life, and which also records and stores emotions. The experiences recorded are positive and negative; the video file is working 24 hours a day. Since it is connected to your emotions, every time a situation in your life arises similar to past events, the video cassette starts playing and connects.
Unfortunately your ignorance alone of the existence of the Enemy Within allowed it take control of your life. This enemy uses only negative experiences to make you always react, think and feel the same in situations that occur in your daily life. For example, if you see a dog while walking down the street, perhaps you had a bad experience with dogs in the past or when you were a child or somebody said, “Careful with the dog! It may bite you!” then the Enemy Within automatically uses this recording, making you vibrate with fear, reliving that moment. Without realizing it you feel the fear sent by the Enemy Within, and while connected to the lying mind you act as though by instinct. You run, thinking, “It’s going to bite me, I may get rabies.” You are so afraid that you run without direction until you trip and fall, hurting yourself.
The Enemy Within has fulfilled his mission-torturing you emotionally with fear, mentally with negative thoughts, and physically with the pain of falling and hurting yourself.

Example:
In a regression session, Paul discovered when he was a child that although his mother loved him, she was very demanding and occasionally hit him, saying he was stupid and bad, that he never did anything right; she scared him by saying that when his father arrived she would tell him so that Paul would be punished.

The child Paul recorded this on his videotape, as follows: Fear of being punished, fear of authority (mom and dad), he believed he was bad because his mother told him so; he considered himself stupid and to blame because he never did anything right.
The negative vibration created by fear, the belief that he was bad, guilty and stupid could not leave him. These feelings remained, stagnating, vibrating, constantly sending off signals of fear, thus feeding the Enemy Within.

P. said that when he was young he would play alone in his room or in another part of the house. If he heard any sound he would immediately jump up and become very nervous (the Enemy Within through the Lying Mind told him, “MY MOM IS COMING! SHE’S GOING TO PUNISH ME! I’M DOING SOMETHING BAD! etc.)

As the years passed, the child P. grew up as a very nervous person, always with the sensation of doing things wrong. Every time his employer (authority) asked to see him he felt that he was going to be fired for incompetence, although there was never a reason.
P.’s Enemy Within, created when he was small, every day increased in size, until it had become a monster that prevented P. having any confidence in himself. The Enemy Within spoke constantly through the Lying Mind, torturing Paul through his emotions and making him afraid, not trusting himself, feeling bad and to blame for everything.
In this way, in similar or different situations, the Enemy Within enters you, making you feel bad, to blame, incapable, a failure, dissatisfied, incompetent, stupid, angry, defeated, etc.
The Enemy Within and the Lying Mind take advantage of these situations, great or small, constantly moving you closer to people and situations that will lead you to live your life differently than you have before, experiencing fear, blame, anger, sadness, anxiety, failure, etc. in the different stages of your life, until finally the pain and suffering make you change your patterns of conduct, seeking a way out and finding the way to free yourself from the slavery of confusion, and the life that you have lived.
It is the Enemy Within and the Lying Mind that makes the human being frequently and easily remember all his negative experiences, on only a few occasions remembering something that caused joy, peace and happiness.
Only you, and nobody else can understand like you that you are the slave of the lies of the Enemy Within. You know even the deepest, darkest and smallest secret about yourself. You must be honest with yourself, no matter how painful or uncomfortable it may be. It is important that you confront those secret emotions hidden in the deepest part of you, which many times you don’t even know are there.