Exercise No. 2

Self-evaluation for guilt

1. In the place that you have chosen to practice your self-liberation exercises, play the Soul Symphonics CD while you answer the following questionnaire:
Identify if you have lived or are living any of the following examples or that may be related to your feelings of disapproval of yourself, feeling bad or guilty:
 
YES
NO
When you finish something do you have the feeling that you should have done it better, and later do you get new ideas that you think are better, making you feel bad or guilty because you think that what you did wasn’t good enough?
 
When you made a purchase or payment such as a house or car payment or something for yourself, do you feel or think that you shouldn’t have done that because that money would have been better used for your family (parents, children, siblings) rather than for yourself?
Do you feel that you have not done enough for your family (father, mother, children, spouse or siblings)?
When somebody from your family, work, school or friends complains that the things that you are involved with never turn out well, do you feel guilty or believe that they are blaming you even though you have nothing to do with what they are complaining about?
Do you feel you should have done more to prevent the death of a loved one (mother, father, brother, sister, child, grandparent, spouse)?
Do you feel you should have prevented your parents from separating?
Do you feel guilty for mistreating or mocking a person who became ill or died?
Do you feel bad because you didn’t visit your parents on weekends or frequently call them on the phone?
Do you feel bad because your family is “very close” and you cannot be close to them because you live in another city or country?
Does your mother or your father make you feel bad or guilty when they tell you they are lonely, they are very old or tired, etc.?
Do the comments of your family, your friends or acquaintances easily make you feel bad or guilty?
Do you consider yourself foolish or worthless?
Do you think your spouse suffers because of you?
Do you believe your parents suffer because of you?
Do you believe your children suffer because of you, because you did not raise them right, because you worked too much and were not with them, etc.?
Do you think you are the cause of your spouse’s bad mood?
Does your spouse say you make them jealous and you accept it?
Do you feel guilty because you cannot have a good sexual relationship with your partner?
Do you feel your family is a burden?
Do you believe you never should have been born?
Do you feel bad for scolding your children even though you were right?
Do you feel guilty when you stop people from coming too close?
Does your spouse make you feel bad because you do not work and bring in money?
When you get sick do you feel guilty because your love one have to take care of you and you are causing economic problems?
Do you feel like the black sheep of the family?
Do you fee that everything that happens around you is your fault?
When somebody close to you does not behave well do you feel bad, as if it were you acting like that? Do you feel embarrassed for him/her?
Other:
 
 

*Continue the list in your notebook. Work with each of these items as follows:

2. Lay down on your back, relax. Let the music wash over as if you are washed in light.
3. Your will and the music are the key for your Enemy Within to leave your body. Order it firmly to leave.
If the Enemy Within answers sending physical or emotional irritations, get control, avoid losing control because of these symptoms. You are in control, you created it!
4. With your eyes closed concentrate on the area of your navel. Work with one of the problems that you marked each day, as well as those that you added to the list. Repeat the exercise until you feel that the guilt has left you. Dilute the Enemy Within that you created with promises and guilt. Declare yourself good and innocent.
If you deliberately participated in acts that hurt others, forgive yourself because you were ignorant and not aware. God has already forgiven you.
5. Focus your attention on your navel (where the energy of dependence is stored). Order it to leave you.

Now focus your attention on the center of your chest (where fear accumulates) and expel it as if it were a source of dark energy springing from your chest and navel. Let it leave as you renounce slavery to the promises that caused you fear and guilt, and that make you feel that if you don’t accomplish anything you are bad or doing bad things.
*Alternate step number 5 every day with step 5(a).

5(a). Use the Cromotherapy audiovisual aid. Observe it as you maintain your intention to eliminate from you your Enemy Within related to your guilt. Expel the energy related to guilt through the center of your throat, the center of your chest, the mouth of your stomach and your navel. Free yourself, declare yourself good and innocent.
6. Let the music continue playing until it ends, finishing the exercise. If you have fallen asleep that’s all right. The music acts for itself and your bodies will work in the order of liberation that you have t the beginning of the exercise.
7. If negative thoughts such as “I’m wasting my time,” or “I’m not achieving anything”, etc. come to mind, or different thoughts that distract you from your objective, let them go. Don’t stop when these occur, continue working, focusing on what you are doing.


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