Exercise No. 3

Self-Evaluation for Punishment

Relationship between guilt and punishment

1. In the place that you have chosen to practice your self-liberation exercises, play the Soul Symphonics CD while you answer the following questionnaire:
Identify if you have lived or living any of the following examples or that may be related to unfulfilled promises that have become a motive for punishment.


 
YES
NO
Have you ever had an accident?
 
Do you frequently have pains in any part of your body such as headache, backache, pain in your knees or chest?
 
Do you frequently forget important things?
 
After your divorce did your ex continue making you participate in unimportant decisions that may bother your current partner or interfere in your life?
 
Do you get angry and then feel sorry, telling yourself your are stupid, dumb, etc.; or do you even hit yourself?
 
Do make quick decisions without thinking about them, even when dealing with something important, and then have problems late?
 
Do you easily lose friends?
 
Do you lose and forget objects easily?
 
Do you get the same illnesses as your parents, both hereditary and not?
 
Could you have had a stable financial life but now find yourself in economic problems due to bad investments, too much trust in your family, fiends and partners ?
 
When you have had to make some presentation at work or school have you had accidents or forgotten something, delaying or preventing the presentation?
 
When you are about to leave o a trip or during a trip have you forgotten or lost important documents or objects?
 
At important meetings where you have to look good before all the others have you done anything ridiculous?
 
Knowing that this could happen, have you been in situations where the police have had to intervene and you were blamed for the problem?
 
Have you had an illness that the doctors did not recognize?
 
Are you a habitual user of alcohol, drugs, tobacco or cola drinks?
 
Do you have to work without rest, and et anxious when you are not active?
 
Have you had bulimia?
 
Does your body disgust you so that you wish you could change it?
 
Have you had anorexia?
 
Do you have friends or a partner that despises you or mistreats you, but whose company you still seek?
 
Do you lose money making foolish purchases, giving it to people, treating your friends and family, easily spending all your money and then feel worried because you have nothing?
 
Do you buy clothes and then decide that what you bought doesn’t fit, makes you look bad so that you are always unhappy with what you wear?
 
Do you ask yourself why things happen to you and not to others (feel self-pity?)
 
Are afraid of dying of an incurable disease?
 
Do you have phobias?
 
Have you ever had an operation?
 
Have you ever had an operation for some illness which returns after a while?
 
Do you any pain or other problem during or after sex?
 
Have you ever had an illness in your genitals?
 
Does your partner physically, verbally, emotionally or mentally abuse you?
 
Other:
 
 
 
 
 

*Continue the list in your notebook. Work with each of these items as follows:

2. Lay down on your back, relax. Let the music wash over you.
3. Visualize a white screen and project on it your image. Follow our memories. Choose one of the situations that you marked in your evaluation.
4. Ask your Superior Being to guide you to find the truth and recognize how the situation that you are watching is related to your promises or childish experiences. See how these have caused you to feel guilty, unconsciously using the situation that you chose as a form of punishment. For example, if there were any prior events that may have been connected to your accidents. (These events do not necessarily have to have occurred the same day as the accident, they may have occurred years before the accident.)
If you deliberately participated in acts that hurt others, forgive yourself because you were ignorant and not aware. God has already forgiven you.

Example:
On February 10, 1996 Nicholas had a car accident. A year before he and his father were angry with each other and not talking. It was his father’s birthday.

“I punished myself. Yes, now I can see it clearly! From early in the morning I told myself I would go see him, but…I think I was afraid of having to face him again. So I decided to not see or talk to him. It was the first birthday that we had not spent together since the time I was born. I felt very guilty because I wasn’t with him on such an important day. I punished myself for being so bad…I didn’t notice how I was driving and I crashed!”

5. Let the memories and thoughts come to you. Accept them without question. The Enemy Within may try to make you doubt your findings. The positive thoughts that explain the punishment that you are seeking are thoughts that come from your Superior Being, the negative thoughts leave you more confused and discouraged. These come from the Enemy Within. Don’t listen to them; ask your Superior Being to help you connect with the trust that you are seeking and freedom from guilt, anger, sadness, pain, fear, shame, etc.
6. Imagine fountains of dark energy is springing from your navel, the mouth of your stomach, the center of your chest and head. These flows of energy are the negative emotions and the Enemy Within. Order it to leave you, use your will and the music to expel it. Accept that you are good and innocent. Renounce the punishment.
7. Work every day on one of the punishments that you marked, as well as those that you added to the list. Repeat the exercise until you feel that you have freed yourself from the Enemy Within and the energy of guilt that created the punishment.


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